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Dear Beloved Readers,

So much has happened since I have written last. One of the most exciting and nerve wrecking event that has happened is that Jon is in the process of switching departments at work. Like I expressed in earlier blogs that he has the potential to make me a part time at home wife, that in itself makes me nervous. I am excited for him mostly because it will give him a challenge and he enjoys a good challenge. I think sometimes he does things like this to see my "impressed" look during our dinner meetings at Denny's. Yes, Jon and I do have family dinner meetings to discuss business and other things coming up. lol So not only is Jon switching departments but his role within our church has changed as well. He went from being a Deacon/ Music Minister to a Deacon/Music Minister/Youth Pastor. I am super excited! I cannot wait to see how God is going to use us. I know Jon is going to rely heavily upon me to help him with his new position at church and I can't wait. Already we are seeing Gods hand in this new ministry of ours and that is super comforting. 

So I dont know if you heard but THANKSGIVING IS NEAR! Since both sets of parents do different things on different days our total thanksgiving experience will be spread throughout the week. But on the special Thanksgiving Day we will be eating at our friend Chelsea's. We are doing a sort of pot luck for our meal. Jon and I are making Yams and Green Bean Casserole. Chelsea makes the best deserts so on Wednesday I "volunteered" to go "help" her with the baking. I hope she doesn't read this until after! lol I love sampling! Here is a picture of Chelsea holding my good friend Tiiara Ferguson's cute little girl during our last youth outing at the Galleria Mall.

Last but not least. I cannot continue to keep my feelings a secret any longer. Jenise Mowery is growing up way too fast! It felt like just yesterday she was just a little kid running around our youth room! Now she is becoming just like me... a big kid! lol I look back at our old youth camp photos and she looks so tiny! Most people blog about their kids and I feel somewhat left out but then I realized that Jenise is more than just a kid from youth I hang out with... she is my little sister! I have extended family and I wouldn't change that for anything! 

This is her at youth camp a couple of years back!!!

This is Jenise and I at the Galleria Mall!! So grown up already! 

In the mist of my confusion... you are still calling my name!

Here I stand where the streets have no name. Where at the end of every road lays two more roads. Decisions to be made and confusion runs rampant. Bloggers...You see there are many twists and turns that lay before me and my brain is in mush mode. I sometimes feel like have lost my direction and desire my will power and my care. School is going to take its spot on the back burner once again. All I long for is to spend just spend time with my husband. Is that so bad to ask for? I rarely see him in the morning before he goes to work (probably because I skipped school just for that reason)  and only see him when I get home late at night after I get off work. Life is more valuable than a piece of paper stating I have a college degree. But listen here... if my college degree gets in the way of me spending time with the person I love the most, then that in my opinion is ludicrous!!! When did we as a people decide to skip out on life and things that are most important (like family) so that we can fulfill the pleasures of this world and not matter how good intentioned they are!?! Things that flood my mind on a regular basis are as follows. Sarah... get a better job with more $$$... Sarah... your house is messy.... Sarah... you're falling behind in school... Sarah.... rent is due soon.... Sarah... Sarah... Sarah.... ENOUGH!! These things are all just worldly crap that we put upon ourselves. If my house is messy ... so what?!? If rent is due and bills need to be paid... so what?!? GOD PROVIDES!!! The sad reality is that not everyone has God to rely on like I do. The sad reality is that others will listen to the things of this world and fall face first into the stinky pit of sin that God detests!! Bloggers where do your priorities lie? 

Dear God,

Thank you for giving me my life so that I may enjoy the blessings you have given me. Help me to not to seek the blessings to enjoy life. Lord thank you for being my rock and my salvation. Please forgive me where I have failed you. In your son Jesus name...

Amen

Crazy Dream

Last night I had one of the most "real" and strenuous dreams. I dreamed I was held captive with a few other members of a group I was in. I believe we were Christians being persecuted. So they drug me out of my holding cell which was like a mile away from everything else in my dream, and brought me to the judge. I was bound in rope and forced to be on my knees. After a rigorous question and answer session they condemned me to burn at the stake. On the way back to my holding cell I remember crying out to God repeatedly asking him to show his power. Not only to save me and a few of my friends but to show his glory to those who did not believe. So I pleaded with God all the way to my cell where I was to get the last remaining items I owned and throw them away. After the guards had corralled all others in my group we took what was to be our last walk, toward certain death. On the way there I was coaching and mentoring some members in my group who were scared to die and I made sure they knew the power of prayer so we all began to cry and plead with God asking for his mercy and grace. Upon arrival at the burning site they tied me and my pals to individual stakes and set the top of the stake on fire as well as the bottom pit of leaves and coal beneath us. All seemed to be lost. I braced myself for certain death. I felt the heat and smelled the fire. I closed my eyes which was to be the last time, suddenly the sky opened up and a pillar of water came down and put out all the fires. I was drenched in water. Looking around I could see the wonder and awe of those who were trying to kill us. Then I woke up! It was such a crazy and real dream! I just thought I would share with you readers! 

The Count Down!! Dreams Come True?

It sounds so incredibly weird to hear myself say " I can't wait to be an at home wife". Seven years ago, the thought of being at home ALL the time made my stomach cringe, but that was all before I met Jon. Before Jon I was such a selfish person. I mean that in all the correct ways... I'm not downing on myself. But its true, my thoughts and actions reflected a person who only cared for their own well being. I guess it stemmed from a childhood that quickly became adulthood after my mothers passing. None the less I wanted a very successful career working all the time, children whom I could support on my own without a second income, and a large house with probably a few staff members to help with the housework. Sounds glorious right? ..... Wrong. Getting married and especially to Jon changed my whole perspective on my life. I have never met a more caring, loving, and genuine person. He has shown me its perfectly acceptable to allow someone else take the burden of provision and to accept provision instead. The last few years I have worked full time plus commissions/ bonuses only to put a roof over my head and food in my belly, nothing more nothing less. That in my old way of thinking was "how it was". But Jon has rocked my world with this new idea of being an at home wife maybe in a few years an at home mom!!!  As I said in an earlier post Jon is hoping for a job transfer that will allow us to be more financially stable. His goal (without my point of views) is to make me an at home wife whether it be full time or part time. What was thought of just a few years ago as sickening, has now become something more like a treasure. How wonderful would it be to cook a full meal for my husband morning, noon, and night?!? If you are wondering man she has gone crazy.. no worries I'm still fully sane! But I genuinely love the look on his face when his belly is full of a meal I have cooked! Lately I come home and fall asleep before I even think of food. Jon has taken a leadership role in dinner because I am way too exhausted to even think of cooking. When I say leadership role I'm talking fast food.... which is so terrible for both of us. This is just one example of many ways our lives would be better if this happens. Of course nothing is perfect but at least I would not be as stressed out and I could enjoy life instead of watching it pass me by. 

Life in the Fast Lane

Life as I know it has been kicked into full speed these last few weeks. When I left you readers I was just beginning school. Now that I have added school to the long list of "must do's", I find myself stretched to my breaking point. School itself is not a problem, the problem lies when I must get up everyday between 7 and 8am only to make it back home after work by 10 or 11pm. That is 16 hours of non-stop rushing around trying to make a living and attend school. Outside those 16 hours I am trying also to squeeze in homework, cleaning, laundry,cooking, not to mention my quiet time with God. I just cant do it all the time. Last week I wore myself to the point of illness. Upset stomach, dizziness, nausea, and fatigue flooded into my new list of worries. Work for me has not been the greatest experience these last few weeks either. I feel as if those imaginary doors are slamming in my face. I have not been able to sell not one of my classes in the past two weeks. The only ones I do sell are for the other trainer. Last month however, I was on fire! My classes were selling left and right. My managers do not treat me with respect for some reason. I honestly have never had this problem in the past. Every manager I have ever worked for has said I am one of their most valuable asset. Does this mean that God has other plans for me? I sure hope so! While doors are closing for me it seems like doors are opening for Jon. Next month we are hoping that he will be transfered to  a new position and potentially make enough money, so I may either go part time at another occupation or even stay at home to finish school. At first my thoughts were "no way am I going to be cooped up at home!" then the more I thought about it the more the idea appealed to me. I would have so much more time to make Jon's and my life easier. I would be able to clean and do laundry on a regular basis and even make straight A's (hopefully). I would have more time to do what I love and that is working at the church. Whether it be cleaning, planning or teaching I love to work there! I feel it is where I belong and my other job is just getting in the way. So dear readers that is my life at the current moment... uncensored! Hopefully soon my life will settle down so I dont have to feel like I'm speeding through life because if I do I may crash.