Time to Deliver This Fat Baby!

This may be very silly and self mutilating but I was sitting on the couch sometime ago and realized that the reason I couldn't get off the couch without a grunt and a swift push is because I have conceived a fat baby. Finally fed up with my self image, I agreed to join Weight Watchers with my friend Chelsea. Thanksgiving Day was both a day of joy and sadness. It is/was time to let go of my poor eating habits and time to create new ones. Today marks the first day of my new lifestyle. I began the day with eating a bowl of Crispix (it usually gets my creative side of my brain going) and ended with a spicy chicken sandwich minus the mayo. Out of a possible 29points I consumed only 28! I was very excited especially because I totaled them wrong to begin with. Otherwise it would have been 30/29. Already I feel a new sense of empowerment. I hope I can hold on to the momentum! Luckily I have a great accountability partner! Well thats all for now! 

Terrible Tuesday!!!

TUESDAY is usually the day of excitement. The day before my day off... WEDNESDAY. My Tuesday begins sometime after midnight. Sound asleep and yet wide awake. How that happens? Well my dream was (as usual) very real. I wake up after my dream still feeling the same physical pains I had felt in my dream. No biggie right? Wrong apparently I had done something yesterday that made my whole body sore. I think it was that crazy rush of customers at 8:55pm before the store closed at 9pm. Yea lets blame the customers! After a very relaxing shower I notice my phone was lit up. I walk over and read a text message from a friend from school saying "where are you girlie" OH NO!! I totally forgot about school! It was already too late to try and make it. Not only that but I had two projects due and I was only half way not even close to being done with them. So alas tonight sometime after work but before midnight I must complete my Biology projects. After a good panic attack,  I go to lunch at Furr's with my Daddy and my Adorable Husband. I of course ate just a little too much so my stomach was again in pain. Now its time for work. Wish me luck because I'm not even done with this Tuesday. 

Special Thanks to Crispix

Dear Beloved Readers,

So much has happened since I have written last. One of the most exciting and nerve wrecking event that has happened is that Jon is in the process of switching departments at work. Like I expressed in earlier blogs that he has the potential to make me a part time at home wife, that in itself makes me nervous. I am excited for him mostly because it will give him a challenge and he enjoys a good challenge. I think sometimes he does things like this to see my "impressed" look during our dinner meetings at Denny's. Yes, Jon and I do have family dinner meetings to discuss business and other things coming up. lol So not only is Jon switching departments but his role within our church has changed as well. He went from being a Deacon/ Music Minister to a Deacon/Music Minister/Youth Pastor. I am super excited! I cannot wait to see how God is going to use us. I know Jon is going to rely heavily upon me to help him with his new position at church and I can't wait. Already we are seeing Gods hand in this new ministry of ours and that is super comforting. 

So I dont know if you heard but THANKSGIVING IS NEAR! Since both sets of parents do different things on different days our total thanksgiving experience will be spread throughout the week. But on the special Thanksgiving Day we will be eating at our friend Chelsea's. We are doing a sort of pot luck for our meal. Jon and I are making Yams and Green Bean Casserole. Chelsea makes the best deserts so on Wednesday I "volunteered" to go "help" her with the baking. I hope she doesn't read this until after! lol I love sampling! Here is a picture of Chelsea holding my good friend Tiiara Ferguson's cute little girl during our last youth outing at the Galleria Mall.

Last but not least. I cannot continue to keep my feelings a secret any longer. Jenise Mowery is growing up way too fast! It felt like just yesterday she was just a little kid running around our youth room! Now she is becoming just like me... a big kid! lol I look back at our old youth camp photos and she looks so tiny! Most people blog about their kids and I feel somewhat left out but then I realized that Jenise is more than just a kid from youth I hang out with... she is my little sister! I have extended family and I wouldn't change that for anything! 

This is her at youth camp a couple of years back!!!

This is Jenise and I at the Galleria Mall!! So grown up already! 

In the mist of my confusion... you are still calling my name!

Here I stand where the streets have no name. Where at the end of every road lays two more roads. Decisions to be made and confusion runs rampant. Bloggers...You see there are many twists and turns that lay before me and my brain is in mush mode. I sometimes feel like have lost my direction and desire my will power and my care. School is going to take its spot on the back burner once again. All I long for is to spend just spend time with my husband. Is that so bad to ask for? I rarely see him in the morning before he goes to work (probably because I skipped school just for that reason)  and only see him when I get home late at night after I get off work. Life is more valuable than a piece of paper stating I have a college degree. But listen here... if my college degree gets in the way of me spending time with the person I love the most, then that in my opinion is ludicrous!!! When did we as a people decide to skip out on life and things that are most important (like family) so that we can fulfill the pleasures of this world and not matter how good intentioned they are!?! Things that flood my mind on a regular basis are as follows. Sarah... get a better job with more $$$... Sarah... your house is messy.... Sarah... you're falling behind in school... Sarah.... rent is due soon.... Sarah... Sarah... Sarah.... ENOUGH!! These things are all just worldly crap that we put upon ourselves. If my house is messy ... so what?!? If rent is due and bills need to be paid... so what?!? GOD PROVIDES!!! The sad reality is that not everyone has God to rely on like I do. The sad reality is that others will listen to the things of this world and fall face first into the stinky pit of sin that God detests!! Bloggers where do your priorities lie? 

Dear God,

Thank you for giving me my life so that I may enjoy the blessings you have given me. Help me to not to seek the blessings to enjoy life. Lord thank you for being my rock and my salvation. Please forgive me where I have failed you. In your son Jesus name...

Amen

Crazy Dream

Last night I had one of the most "real" and strenuous dreams. I dreamed I was held captive with a few other members of a group I was in. I believe we were Christians being persecuted. So they drug me out of my holding cell which was like a mile away from everything else in my dream, and brought me to the judge. I was bound in rope and forced to be on my knees. After a rigorous question and answer session they condemned me to burn at the stake. On the way back to my holding cell I remember crying out to God repeatedly asking him to show his power. Not only to save me and a few of my friends but to show his glory to those who did not believe. So I pleaded with God all the way to my cell where I was to get the last remaining items I owned and throw them away. After the guards had corralled all others in my group we took what was to be our last walk, toward certain death. On the way there I was coaching and mentoring some members in my group who were scared to die and I made sure they knew the power of prayer so we all began to cry and plead with God asking for his mercy and grace. Upon arrival at the burning site they tied me and my pals to individual stakes and set the top of the stake on fire as well as the bottom pit of leaves and coal beneath us. All seemed to be lost. I braced myself for certain death. I felt the heat and smelled the fire. I closed my eyes which was to be the last time, suddenly the sky opened up and a pillar of water came down and put out all the fires. I was drenched in water. Looking around I could see the wonder and awe of those who were trying to kill us. Then I woke up! It was such a crazy and real dream! I just thought I would share with you readers!